Presently Growing

Everything around me is growing.  But it's not like this is something new.  Isn't strange when you become aware of something so obvious?

I am 17 weeks pregnant and am loving the 2nd trimester of pregnancy.

I attend a prenatal yoga class where many of the women are struggling with different aspects of their pregnancy but there I sit blissful awaiting the arrival of my first born...and growing.  I look a women who is 16 weeks pregnant and is not even showing and I think, "why isn't she growing or showing?"  Guess I building a big baby. :)

I day dream constantly about my baby and the kind of mother I am going to be.  Will I be bored like some people say or I will I be totally obsessed like I think I will be?

Being a Mom, a stay at home Mom, has been a life long dream of mine.  Some women want to be lawyers, teachers, business owners, etc. I have wanted to be many things but only because they would lead me to being a stay at home Mom.

The truth is, I feel as though I have always had a special and secret relationship with children.  When I am with them and their with me it is as though time stands still.  And it really doesn't matter whose children they are. (I don't discriminate.:))  They are the one thing that I found in this wonderful world that can really make me stop and be PRESENT.

I definitely have those moments with my husband and very close friends but with children it's like a vacuum that I can't get out of nor do I want to.

So as I sit here growing...I wonder what will the world be like with my child in it and will I be living in a vacuum with my child and my family.