I am 17 weeks pregnant and am loving the 2nd trimester of pregnancy.
I attend a prenatal yoga class where many of the women are struggling with different aspects of their pregnancy but there I sit blissful awaiting the arrival of my first born...and growing. I look a women who is 16 weeks pregnant and is not even showing and I think, "why isn't she growing or showing?" Guess I building a big baby. :)
I day dream constantly about my baby and the kind of mother I am going to be. Will I be bored like some people say or I will I be totally obsessed like I think I will be?
Being a Mom, a stay at home Mom, has been a life long dream of mine. Some women want to be lawyers, teachers, business owners, etc. I have wanted to be many things but only because they would lead me to being a stay at home Mom.
The truth is, I feel as though I have always had a special and secret relationship with children. When I am with them and their with me it is as though time stands still. And it really doesn't matter whose children they are. (I don't discriminate.:)) They are the one thing that I found in this wonderful world that can really make me stop and be PRESENT.
I definitely have those moments with my husband and very close friends but with children it's like a vacuum that I can't get out of nor do I want to.
So as I sit here growing...I wonder what will the world be like with my child in it and will I be living in a vacuum with my child and my family.
